Ok, I realize all of the posts I’ve made in this journal are Homoerotic, however, I would still have to say I am straight with a very curious other side. I have a dilemma/ opportunity but I don’t know what to make of it. And beings that I cant ask a ton of my other friends I thought I’d seek advice here. I live in a house with three other guys. Were each pretty different but we get along well.
Since school started last semester however, I have found myself secretly craving to have me first homoerotic experience with a man with one of my roomies. Were both pretty open about sex, frequently when it’s the two of us we’ll talk about masturbation, sex, that sort of thing, however I’ve always been rather reserved b/c I didn’t want to scare him away, b/c he is a great guy. However I constantly feel like I’m getting these subtle hints that he might have some bisexual urges he’s wishing to make a reality. There ARE two other guys in the house that are much more reserved than either of us about sex, so I don’t know if he is being subtle so the other guys don’t really take notice, or if I just want to mess around with him so bad that I read too far into things.
Tonight was particularly unusual. Three of us got drunk tonight at the house. While the other guy was in the shower we kind of talked and simultaneously started rubbing ourselves. I mean it was me with my hand down my pants next to him doing the same. We weren’t really actively talking about sex or anything, though. We continue to drink more and this guys girlfriend comes over. By now we are wasted and my roomie is just being dumb. And eventually he leans over the back of the couch and peck kisses me on the lips. I know this sounds like a definite go ahead, but this guy clowns around a lot and likes to play with people’s minds, although hes never kissed a guy before. It wasn’t anything big, infact I don’t know that our lips fully touched. But for me craving him as bad as I do, I was immediately turned on.
A fet minutes later he came over and sat on my legs which were stretched over the couch. When he sat down I kept my feet there, again nothing really happened after that but the fact that we were like that was odd.
Lastly as he was going to bed, I came into the bathroom to brush my teeth and he starts undoing his pants to take a piss. In the mirror I am trying to stay there as long as I can but eventually I leave, and he leaves the door open while hes pissing (something we never really do here)
I don’t know if im overreacting, or ignoring obvious signs. (bearing in mind he seemed to be really drunk while doing all this) If any of you have any advice I really need it.
Nothing would please me more than to fool around with this guy, but I don’t know what to perceive. Should I approach him drunk sober? What would I say? Any help would greatly be appreciated.
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